So Jesus said to them, “Because of your unbelief; for assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you.
This particular verse from the Bible always surprised me …Why did God ever compare our faith to mustard seed??? I trust the Lord in everything; Our faith could be compared with something else other than such a tiny little mustard seed. This question always kept ringing in my mind?? Why Lord??
The excitement of the New Year hovered around everywhere and Jerry had to take the first dose of medicine for jaundice. He took the medicine then we dropped Jerry home and went to church, unlike other days in church I sat down with a heavy heart since Jerry could not attend the New Year service though within I was asking the Lord to heal him. The day went by, and then he had another two doses of the medicine the following weeks. Physical we could not see much improvement in him and now it was two weeks with the medicine and time for the blood test to check the Bilirubin count (usually checked for jaundice). After a long wait through the day dad brought the reports, he face didn’t show any happiness I was just expecting that it would be reduced, but to all our shock the count has doubled since the first test. Our heart broke, we convinced ourselves by thinking the reports would be wrong (my conscious pricking how can the reports be wrong ??????). We took the reports in another hospital the next day but it very well stated that the previous reports were correct :(.
One of my uncle said they give medicine for Jaundice at a place near Charminar , so we took Jerry there and we could see him improving though very gradually ,but yes he was improving :). I was really happy until then , on Feb 12 early morning I woke up to find out that Jerry had vomited in the night(Now this wasn’t a good sign .. all thoughts ringing again was he improving??? Is there some other problem?? What was his problem??? … Till this time I had put my trust and FAITH in the Lord, I totally looked on to him with all prayers .Now I lost that FAITH. I was really depressed. I didn’t want to pray neither do anything, I waited for him so much with all trust and hope and now this is what I hear. I was broken couldn’t let anyone else know but after sometime still was consoling myself and tried to divert my mind to my work. But in vain, the thought was still ringing in my mind. We have a prayer fellowship in my office, so somehow I wanted to attend that especially this day. And the message there to my surprise was about the ‘Faith of a mustard seed’ I was taken back, was it all for me???? I prayed and asked the Lord to forgive me for how within a fraction of second I lost the FAITH in him.
My heavenly father was so grateful to me and taught me the lesson of “FAITH OF A MUSTARD SEED”
I thank HIM for teaching me this lesson. Jerry is completely recovered and he rather will come out as a greater witness for the Lord. I thank the Lord for the change he brought in Jerry’s life too :) and for HIS abundant love and grace upon our family. All four of us Jerry, Appa , Amma & myself went through a very difficult time but it has helped us and taught us such amazing things we need to overcome in Life.
For all people out there this is my message ‘Just keep up the faith in HIM alone’. It might take time either days, months or even years but his LOVE is so amazing and unfailing. He never leaves us nor forgets us.
If the trails come, He’s taking His time so that we can become stronger in Him.
Well all this made my mind hoggle, boggle and yippee I have opened my account in blogging.
